Flux

This year has fluctuated madly between impossible stagnation and dramatic change.  Just when I think I have things figured out, life throws a wrench in my carefully constructed plans and I have to start all over.  I'm a classic Type A planner.  I make lists.  I have at least 3 calendars and a handwritten planner.  I like to check things off. I have goals.

Lately my goals have been shifting wildly too.  I'm discovering I don't actually want some of the things I always thought I wanted, and I may actually want a few things I never thought I'd want.  These shifting goals have led me to some tough decisions--decisions I don't really know how to make.

I've recently decided, for instance, that I want to go to grad school at UWF.  I'm already enrolled in grad school though...dually enrolled as a matter of fact.  I think I will go to UWF when I finish up the degrees I'm currently working on.  Of course that means I'm going to be in school forever (okay maybe not forever, but pretty darn close). That's a definite draw back.

But then everything worth having in life is worth working for, and if I have to work a little bit longer than I originally planned to get what I want out of life then I suppose it will be worth it.

I have lots of options to consider though and I don't have a lot of time to figure things out.  I'll just do my best and hope it all works out.