You know--LIFE

I wish I could say 2011 is wrapping up nicely for me....but it isn't.  There are ragged edges and loose ends.  Things kind of suck right now.  I've been through SUCK before so I know I can get through it, but knowing and doing are two very different things. 

I am not a particularly patient person.  I like for things to be nice and neat and in their place.  I am normally practical to a fault and I make decisions quickly and without regret.  Right this second the only Jenn-typical trait I seem to be exhibiting is impatience.  Things are not nice and neat and in their place.  I am not behaving particularly practically in a given situation, but in my defense are emotion-driven needs and reactions ever practical?  I am also not making decisions quickly, nor without regret.  Nothing seems as black and white, as cut and dried as it should.  I'm in a perpetual state of confusion and malcontent--and I hate it.

I'm not very happy right now.  I would not typically admit that to anyone, but I promised myself (and all of you) when I started this blog that I would keep it honest.  And this is honest.  Life isn't all sunshine and fluffy bunnies.  Sometimes life is messy and ugly and heartbreaking.  It isn't always pretty.  So I'm writing about it.  I'm writing about it because it's possible many of you are also living in an ugly space right now and maybe you can relate (or maybe it'll be nice to read this and know you are not alone and someone else is having a tough time too).

I do have some good news though: I got A's in both of my graduate classes this semester!  I have 2 semesters left before I will graduate.  Woohoo! I also found a few really awesome jobs to apply for.  Do me a favor and send me some good thoughts and job-getting prayers?  I'd appreciate it.   Happy holidays dear ones!